'I just wanted to get out of the marriage'

In February 2010 she was left heartbroken after the collapse of her relationship with ex-husband Ashley Cole. But despite calling time on their three-and-a-half year marriage, in the public eye Cheryl Cole appeared to be coping well. 

However the 29-year-old singer has revealed in her autobiography, entitled Chery: My Story, that following her split from the England footballer that she believes she suffered a 'nervous breakdown'. 

 According to the Daily Star Sunday, Cheryl admits that she struggled to really get into her third series on the The X Factor, which saw her act Rebecca Ferguson place second, and subsequently opted to be alone on Christmas Day.

 In the candid book the Girls Aloud star wrote: 'I just wanted to get out of the marriage and out of the house but as the day of the move got close I became more and more emotional. 'I think I was actually going through a nervous breakdown.' 

Cheryl also opened up about how she lied to her family and friends by telling them all that she was doing well when in fact she was terribly unhappy. The Promise This singer continued: 'Really I wanted to say "Help me, I can't live like this any more. I'm miserable as hell.'

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'I loved you so much but you never gave a f***, so screw you': Cheryl Cole

Despite divorcing in September 2010, Cheryl Cole is rumoured to have remained in close contact with her ex-husband Ashley, who she has admitted that she will 'always love.'

But it appears that the singer, 28, may have finally gotten over her lingering affection for the love rat - and hit out at him in a song on her upcoming album.

Lyrics from a song entitled 'Screw You' have been published in The Sun, and are believed to be directed at the 31-year-old Chelsea player.

In the expletive-heavy song, Cheryl rants: 'Can't believe all the s*** I did for you, was so caught up in the love I felt for ya.

'I was never enough, I never got your love.

'I loved you so much but you never gave a f*** so screw you.

'I can still remember our first date, never thought I would scream "I hate ya".'

Cole's last album Messy Little Raindrops was released in November 2010, just two months after she was granted a divorce from Ashley.

Despite expectations, it did not contain references to her dramatic love life.

However at the time Cheryl is believed to have been still considering a reconciliation with the man who cheated on her numerous times, and had only divorced him because of public presure

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Cheryl Cole embroiled in Twitter row with MC Harvey over secret romance claims

Cheryl Cole is embroiled in a Twitter feud with rapper MC Harvey after he claimed the pair enjoyed a secret relationship.

The singer, 28, wrote on her Twitter page she was baffled by news of their apparent romance in a magazine interview this week.

She tweeted: 'Was this "relationship" happening in your head @harveyofficial?! Are you smoking something?

'@harveyofficial I think I've met you once maybe twice at public events and With your wife!! #s**tjustgetsweirder.'

A few minutes later, Harvey tweeted back: 'Do you actually want me to tweet some of the messages you emailed me @cherylcole pipe down and stop playing the saint in front of your fans.

'I had your back @cherylcole until you sent that s**t. Disappointed in you if the public seen these emails you would end up with egg on your face.

'And let's get this straight @cherylcole I don't need no hype of you! I'd rather go broke and work in Sainsbury's than talk about your personal s**t

'This is not a twitter beef. I still have massive respect for @cherylcole but you shouldn't of tweeted that knowing we both have personal messages to eachother #silenceinthecourt.'

He continued: 'Its funny how the hype has calmed down since I mentioned the emails. Where I come from we don't snitch I'd rather die than sell my soul #simples.'

To make things awkward, Cheryl has been friends with Harvey's ex-wife Alesha Dixon and the mother of his child, Javine Hylton.

The former So Solid Crew rapper, 32, claimed he had a secret romance with Cheryl in late 2010 - during her last series of The X Factor.

The non-league footballer, real name Michael Harvey Jnr, said their relationship took place around the same time Cheryl was linked to American dancer Derek Hough.

He tells the new issue of Now magazine: 'There was a relationship and an attraction to each other's aura...

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